I completely forgot to mention it, but I went to see the doctor on Friday to tell him that I had stopped my medication. I expected him to shout at me (even though he doesn't strike me as that kind of person), but he was fine, and said yes, we could see how it goes with just the iron tablets and the vitamin D (I also take folic acid and magnesium, but he doesn't know that). He did say, however, that as soon as I feel like my mood's slipping and I'm becoming depressed again, to go back and get re-prescribed (though IF that happens, I am going to beg not to go back on Cipralex).

Let me reiterate that, if you are on antidepressants, DO NOT DO WHAT I DID. Seek medical advice in ALL CASES.

I have noticed that I feel a lot more human now. I also feel more like doing stuff. I am sleeping better, but not for as long (which is good!), and I feel more refreshed when I do wake up. I feel like I am reacting better to stuff - things that make me laugh, cry, etc. Also I noticed that now I don't feel like everything makes me cry, which is also good (I haven't really listened to what I'd define as emotional music, for example, but I imagine that'd make me teary anyway? *shrugs*)

I actually feel the best I've felt in about ten years. Amazing.

~*~

I am knitting mum a pair of socks for her birthday. It isn't her birthday until December, but this is my first time knitting a pattern into socks, so I thought I'd give myself plenty of time to wrestle with them, rip them back if I had to, and throw them away if I needed to.

I think mum possibly suspects that I'm making them for her, as she knows I'm making them, and I asked her a couple of days ago if she liked the design. So. It's probably not going to be much of a surprise to her. Oh well.